skinny day

03-12-04 - 9:39 a.m.

another skinny day today...

I wish these things didn't matter.

sort of.

*sigh*

...but today I feel thin, so it's all good... good? hmm.

I haven't done anything drastic in some time. I went to my parents' house yesterday & the battery in their scale is still dead, so I still don't know what I weigh.

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My hands look like bony old lady hands.

Just today.

Because my skin is dry and my hands get really cold when I type.

They're not so purple this winter as they used to get.

They are a normal colour most of the time.

But then I wonder...

does that mean I'm not as thin as I once was?

sad.

isn't it.

I find it so.

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I'm getting closer to normal.

It's been that way since... what?

maybe since Ken got back?

but no.

I think I had an unwritten, unspoken goal in the back of my mind, to have things straightened out with this messed up eating by the time he got back from his mission.

I didn't do too badly either.

Sure the thoughts surface.

But the actions don't much.

And thoughts are certainly less harsh.

that's good.

what went before - what came after

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