it's back

10-16-03 - 11:19 p.m.

I just wrote an entry a few minutes ago.

But I've been reading over some entries.

I miss losing weight.

I miss people's comments & concerns.

I'm not real unhappy with the way my body feels, but I wouldn't mind it being a bit smaller (except for the unfortunate looseness of my clothes)...

But I don't want to get into that disordered mindset, so it's a difficult place to be in... and I'm now in the habit of trying to feed myself when I'm hungry, so it would be difficult...

Maybe I just need some sleep...

But today I looked at the thinpage... I haven't done that in a very long time.

It's not a sign or anything- in fact, probably the last time I ever will look at it.

I'm moving in to our new apartment in November. No internet then. So much for this diary, I guess... maybe I'll update every now & then when I get a chance, elsewhere.

Until then I'll keep writing though.

Am I rambling?

what went before - what came after

Last 5 entries:

Pregnant! - 01-23-06
*happy unintentional weightloss* - 02-08-05
anyone still there? - 08-17-04
- - 05-11-04
and as for lunch... - 05-03-04