confronted

08-19-03 - 9:09 p.m.

My mom did something she has never done before and it really surprised me.

She started spitting out question after question about my weight, out of nowhere! We have never really discussed this before... and it's funny because I'm not really trying very hard to lose weight right now, I'm just being careful when I feel like it, not over eating. Among her questions was this, "How much do you weigh right now?" I told the truth, that I'm not really sure.

She actually demanded that I go with her to the bathroom and weigh myself infront of her! I couldn't believe it and was almost amused by the whole thing- I mean seriously, I'm not underweight or anything.

Well, I weighed 125 last night. (I'm 5'8") She asked me if that was 10 lbs I had lost. I'm not sure where she got that number from. I said, since when? Since I got home from school, yes. I didn't mention that it's more than 10 lbs- it really didn't seem like a time to get detailed.

Well, she started asking me why I would want to lose weight. I told her that I wasn't trying to lose weight. Then she harped on how much 10 lbs is and I told her that I weigh about the same as I did when I left for school, and I probably just lost the weight that I gained there... and it's been 3 months. It's a lifestyle change. She didn't buy that. My dad then joined in, telling me that 10 lbs is a lot on someone my size. She told me that I need to eat (!) I told her that I do.

Today, she made me turn around so that she could look at my butt and then came over, gasping, "Oh my gosh!" and pulling at my pants. I said, "What are you doing?" She said she was checking to see how much weight I had lost!

Then she went off on how I now weigh 5 lbs less than Amber (my youngest sister) and she is a few inches shorter than I am. This didn't make sense to my mind because she looks so much smaller than I do and has massive hipbone stick-out-age... I don't get it.

Then at work today, Dawn (out of nowhere) told me that I have lost too much weight, I look too skinny, and I need to stop losing. She told me that I'm fading away.

What the...? I don't get it. I haven't lost any weight since before our holidays... I weighed 124lbs today... that's a pound more than before the holidays, actually (not that that makes a big difference in appearance)... I even said that to my mom and she said that I do look a lot thinner since then. I just kept reiterating the fact that I really have not lost any weight since then.

I don't know what more will come of this whole thing, but it seems quite odd. Why is everyone making these comments, now?...

*scratching my head, continually, over this*

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