just face it

06-06-03 - 9:47 p.m.

He said that he works with wood and that the wood around the mirror was warped. I said, "Oh, so that's why I don't like what I see when I look at my reflection in this mirror."

It was supposed to be tongue-in-cheek.

He said, "Oh, come on, how could you possibly not like what you see when you look in the mirror?!"

That was a nice compliment from some random customer today. It made me feel a bit better about things.

Today has been one of those days. I just feel too mushy in the midsection. The thought brings on violent thoughts and wishes for extreme actions and speedy weightloss. Those are quickly overcome by more sensible thoughts.

I don't look bad even though I may feel bad. That's the truth.

If only I could always feel that way. It can be so fleeting.

It's been 3 days since I wrote in this diary. Where have I been?

Last night I worked out a bit, with Robin, & Sarah. It was hilariously fun. We went to McDonald's afterward. I had half of a McFlurry. lol And what was the point of working out, may I ask? ;)

I can't even recall what I did the night before...

My interview was this morning and I thought it went well.

The bad news came in a car full of Matt, Ben, Brandon, and Hilary.

The gallery called.

They really enjoyed the interview

BUT

they gave the position to someone with more experience.

I thought I had a lot of experience. I thought I was perfect for the job and so did everyone who knows me who I told about it.

But they would love it if I would volunteer

uh,

yeah right.

no, thank you, I'd like to earn some money this summer...

This really does make the outlook much worse for my summer. It means working Friday nights and Saturdays, not to mention working for my dad.

oh, blast.

this really stinks.

And I was just asked to be the YSA rep. for our Stake which means that I'm supposed to actually be at the events that I organize.

Such issues.

I so wish there were another alternative, but I think I've exhausted all avenues. I had been hoping so much for this job, but all I can do is believe that it wasn't meant to be and that there is some reason for this.

Maybe something else will come up.

Maybe there's a reason I need to be at the furniture store.

blech.

I wish I could see it now.

On the bright side, however, I'll have the opportunity to go to Nauvoo this summer.

I'm not sure whether that's a good thing of not anymore, though.

That remains to be seen, but for now all I can do is face it.

I don't know why I feel so content. I would have thought I'd be quite put out by this news.

Oh, my mom's on the phone for me...

what went before - what came after

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Pregnant! - 01-23-06
*happy unintentional weightloss* - 02-08-05
anyone still there? - 08-17-04
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and as for lunch... - 05-03-04