a tribute and a farewell

05-30-03 - 8:39 a.m.

I've been thinking about you and how your words say so many things... but most of all I've been thinking about the darkness and the negativity. I wonder what attracted me so much to it in the first place and I find myself in a different place than I was then. It's not as attractive as it once was. Your words are mysterious and full of emotion and feeling. I admire the way that you are able to express things. Yet I am drawn away for now. It's not my focus now... though I can't say exactly what is.

You are an amazing person as far as beauty and depth of feeling go. You truly are. When I discovered you, I became sucked into your world, your words and your experiences. I felt your pain and I marvelled at the things that you had faced. You were just that- a sad doll... like a strong girl who couldn't be broken no matter what you did to her, but picture a sad doll... I see a worn and broken doll with a faded smile and large, sad eyes... you're strong, yes... but you will cry. I hope you will stay strong. I can see that there are many whose lives you strengthen. I'm sure I shall check in again in the future to see how you're holding up.

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